[IC: Forward dated to Saturday 19 May]

[julienned]

[YEAH I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY YOU GUYS ARE IN HERE. it's a comatose teenager hooked up to a bunch of machines.

it's really boring.] 

Comments

[skinofalizard]

And I'm actually good at it.

...it's kind of why the Phoenix couldn't break me.

[julienned]

Is that what you think happened?

[skinofalizard]

What do you mean?

[julienned]

With the Phoenix Force and I.

Because I didn't.

[skinofalizard]

[rolls his eyes]

Julian, I'm actually talking about me right now. I don't know what she did to you. I do know that you fought her as long and as hard as you could for us. I also know that she undoubtedly threw more at you than me. She didn't try to get me to join her.

I'm not saying you're a bad friend, or a bad leader, or a bad whatever you want to consider yourself. I am saying that I didn't break because I have to be here for everyone else. That is literally the only thing I allow myself to focus on when I'm awake.

[julienned]

That's why we're a mess. We're all doing that.

[skinofalizard]

We're so busy trying to be there for each other we forget to actually rely on each other once in a while, too.

[julienned]

You mean "we're codependent as hell".

[skinofalizard]

My way sounds slightly healthier.

[julienned]

There is nothing about this that is healthy, normal or sane.

[skinofalizard]

How do you think we should go about fixing that? Do you think we even can, at this point?

[julienned]

All I know is what I read in a book to try and find the word for what's wrong with me. How would I know?

[skinofalizard]

Yeah. I guess you wouldn't any more than me. Sorry.

[julienned]

Maybe if we broke something someone could give a crap.

[skinofalizard]

Only long enough to yell at us.

[julienned]

Maybe eventually that'll be enough.

[skinofalizard]

I'm not sure negative attention is better than nothing.

[julienned]

It's still attention, isn't it?

[skinofalizard]

I'd rather they care about us and not just what we might break next.

[julienned]

We're not going to get that. Might as well cut our losses on that one.

[skinofalizard]

Then I'd rather just cut my losses on it entirely.

[julienned]

We're stuck with them, Vic. Isn't that the stupidest part? We're stuck with people who we don't like very much and they don't like us at all, because it's all we have left.

[skinofalizard]

We all still have each other.

[julienned]

Yeah.

You know that everyone thinks of us all as a singular unit?

[skinofalizard]

It saves them the trouble of having to get to know all of us.