[IC: Forward dated to Saturday 19 May]

[julienned]

[YEAH I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY YOU GUYS ARE IN HERE. it's a comatose teenager hooked up to a bunch of machines.

it's really boring.] 

Comments

[skinofalizard]

No, you're the dumbass that does that. I'm the badass that does that. You said so yourself.

[julienned]

You asked me what I heard, and what I heard was that you're a dumbass who does that.

[skinofalizard]

[shrugs]

Yeah, well, they need someone.

[julienned]

Yeah, they do.

[skinofalizard]

And I'm actually good at it.

...it's kind of why the Phoenix couldn't break me.

[julienned]

Is that what you think happened?

[skinofalizard]

What do you mean?

[julienned]

With the Phoenix Force and I.

Because I didn't.

[skinofalizard]

[rolls his eyes]

Julian, I'm actually talking about me right now. I don't know what she did to you. I do know that you fought her as long and as hard as you could for us. I also know that she undoubtedly threw more at you than me. She didn't try to get me to join her.

I'm not saying you're a bad friend, or a bad leader, or a bad whatever you want to consider yourself. I am saying that I didn't break because I have to be here for everyone else. That is literally the only thing I allow myself to focus on when I'm awake.

[julienned]

That's why we're a mess. We're all doing that.

[skinofalizard]

We're so busy trying to be there for each other we forget to actually rely on each other once in a while, too.

[julienned]

You mean "we're codependent as hell".

[skinofalizard]

My way sounds slightly healthier.

[julienned]

There is nothing about this that is healthy, normal or sane.

[skinofalizard]

How do you think we should go about fixing that? Do you think we even can, at this point?

[julienned]

All I know is what I read in a book to try and find the word for what's wrong with me. How would I know?

[skinofalizard]

Yeah. I guess you wouldn't any more than me. Sorry.

[julienned]

Maybe if we broke something someone could give a crap.

[skinofalizard]

Only long enough to yell at us.

[julienned]

Maybe eventually that'll be enough.

[skinofalizard]

I'm not sure negative attention is better than nothing.

[julienned]

It's still attention, isn't it?

[skinofalizard]

I'd rather they care about us and not just what we might break next.

[julienned]

We're not going to get that. Might as well cut our losses on that one.

[skinofalizard]

Then I'd rather just cut my losses on it entirely.