[IC: Forward dated to Saturday 19 May]

[julienned]

[YEAH I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY YOU GUYS ARE IN HERE. it's a comatose teenager hooked up to a bunch of machines.

it's really boring.] 

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[julienned]

[he blinks in surprise but there's not the shocked looks that you'd ... expect from Victor now being symmetrical]

Learned to jerk off with your tongue yet?

[skinofalizard]

That's the first place you go to? Me jerking off? Man, which one of us is gay, again?

[but, he grins]

And who says I needed to learn?

[julienned]

I have to live with you. It's looking out for my own best interests. Vic, you have to jerk off for the benefit of the group.

But it'd better not be in the bed. That's weird.

[skinofalizard]

You'll never know.

[julienned]

I'll know.

[skinofalizard]

Yeah, apparently you know everything.

...who told you?

[julienned]

Ms Grey, when I woke up.

Sofia filled me in a bit more.

[skinofalizard]

[oh so basically you heard it from the worst possible person]

I already changed the rule to say "legs."

[not quite managing a smile at that]

[julienned]

Any bets yet on which one of us is going to lose a leg first out of you or me?

[skinofalizard]

Maybe we'll get lucky for a change and it won't be either of us.

[julienned]

Doubt it. I used up all my luck landing myself in a coma and keeping all my higher functions.

[skinofalizard]

Yeah, first thing I thought when I saw you in here was "man, that Julian Keller sure is lucky."

[julienned]

I rejected her offer to help her kill everyone here. I should have died.

Though that might not be luck either.

[skinofalizard]

If you had died, you would have just come right back.

And then I would have killed her.

[julienned]

You too, huh?

[skinofalizard]

I'd be more surprised if one of us wouldn't at least try.

[julienned]

And it's not like I'd be there to stop you.

[skinofalizard]

You know, I need to ask. What were you trying to do, anyway?

[julienned]

Two things.

[he holds up his mangled hand...makes a face and holds up the other one instead. counts on his fingers]

One: find out why this is going on and how to stop it. And two: if she does go all genocidal, to focus on me because I'm the one most able to defend themselves if she gets all TK-spammy.

[skinofalizard]

Two more things.

[not bothering to hold up either of his mangled hands]

One: It's going on because Ms. Grey can't control herself. And two: that was a bad plan.

[julienned]

One: Not quite, but you're a ton closer than Ms Grey is. And two: I didn't expect her to ask me to join her!

[skinofalizard]

I don't care what you were expecting, Julian! We're all we have to count on. You don't get to make a call like that on your own, and you sure as hell don't get to do it without telling anyone what your plan is!

[julienned]

If I had told you, you'd all stop me. And then we wouldn't know what I know now and we wouldn't be able to stop her! I don't know if you hadn't noticed, but this version of Jean Grey isn't willing to make a sacrifice!

[skinofalizard]

Or we would have let you go while being around to make sure it didn't get to the point where you were in a coma for a week! Or we could have come up with an entirely different plan that didn't end horribly.

[makes an incredibly frustrated face because he knows there's absolutely no point in continuing this]

What do you know now? If I'm allowed to know.

[but that doesn't mean he won't]

[julienned]

It's not like you're going to run off and tell Magneto, are you?

[he rakes his hand through his hair]

Look, we all have moments where we think how much we hate what is going on with us. It's how we deal with them that's important. She doesn't deal with them, she pretends she doesn't have them and dumps them all on some other personality she's gone and created ... or the Phoenix Force, or whatever. This crap hurts my head. But everything negative about her life, about us, she dumps on that instead of dealing with it herself. Then she can pretend it's not her: it's someone else that is just using her as a meat puppet.

It is her, and she is never going to control it until she faces up to the fact that you know what? We hate what's going on with us. That she dislikes us, despite being part of the same species, because we don't trust her. And until she faces that, we're going to have a cosmic entity doing what she wants and won't acknowledge.